Today is hitting me rather heavily. I'm very emotional about you turning 7. For some reason, 7 is hitting me harder than other years. Maybe it's because 7 is when I recall starting to have a really solid flow of memories about my life. And I am all to aware that your life has not always been easy. You struggle sometimes due to your sensory processing disorder and language processing disorder and auditory processing issues. It makes the world and people in it hard for you to understand sometimes; and it makes people in the world less able to understand you- the 100% genuine, so sweet, truly loving and caring, honest, silly, creative, wonderful you. Most of the times your true colors shine through. I know we can't control other people's thoughts and actions.
But I can control my own, and for this, I must apologize. I don't know how many times in our 7 years together I've let you down, raised my voice, misunderstood you, not tried hard enough to understand you. I always love you, and I always will. I still have a lot of work to do on always, in every action, showing you how much I do love you.
You have made me the father I am, along with your sister. Your love runs through my veins, and I hope that my love- along with my heart, and my flaws, and all of it- runs through yours too.
I am so proud of the young man you are becoming. You never give up. You never settle. You are sweet, and strong, and protective, and creative, and adoring, and curious, and amazing...and you've grow up before our eyes.
I will always be your Daddy...and you will always be my son. I will never give up on you, and I will try my hardest to always be the best Daddy that you deserve.
That is my promise to you, now and forever.
Happy Birthday, my son. I love you to a million, billion, trillion pieces. May your dreams come true, and may you always find your happiness.







